Walls… they are a part of our every day life and we don’t think twice about them for they are practical barriers that separate and give privacy. However, when emotional walls are constructed around our heart they imprison and destroy.
Like the main character in my book, A Rag Doll’s Heart, suffering can come all too soon in our lives and we find ourselves forging these emotional barricades around our heart to conceal our pain. We usually run from childhood trauma as soon as we are adults trying to forget our turmoil. Fear propels us into a state of protection and it sets itself as ruler of our hearts, becoming an obsession, for we desperately don’t want to feel the misery we once experienced.
We then attempt to move on and take control of our own lives, and we are successful for awhile, but eventually the effects of our anxiety resurge later in our relationships and we become at a loss as what to do.
You must know that the remnants of childhood sorrow, or any type of sorrow for that matter, cannot be successfully hidden in your heart; your pain will always materialize in other ways, in particular with people when they disappoint, anger, or hurt you.
We think constructing these emotional walls to hide behind will provide the relief and safety we yearn for; but tragically they leave us terribly vulnerable while bringing more deception and fear into our souls.
Have you ever tried to mask your torment with substance abuse, over-eating, a controlling nature, anger, isolation, over-obsession with work or career, etc? The problem with walls is that you are trying to protect yourself from the lies that you have been told by hiding behind lies you have constructed. Do you understand what I mean?
Sadly, we believe devising schemes will alleviate our suffering and bring security and peace to our lives, but it does anything but that!
The walls we build actually block the truth from us and impede our healing. They are nothing but obstructions that camouflage the lies; lies that are disguised as artificial healing to obscure the truth. These walls we’ve built will never bring the everlasting healing that Christ offers; they will only keep us in a brutal bondage unable to see clearly.
Unfortunately, we have becomes so accustomed to these walls or lies that we don’t even realize the damage they’re causing. Again, their main objective is to block truth and impede healing. So, anything that you are doing that prevents you from receiving the love and healing from Jesus Christ is a strategy of Satan, to keep you in captivity.
Walls are very dangerous place to hide. I know this because my walls of deception came crashing down on me, like Rag Doll’s did. The world that I had tried to control so well, erupted one day spewing the truth to all my friends and family about my husband’s abuse. But I knew it was time, long over due, God had to care of my chaotic mess now… and he did.
He showed the magnitude of his love by being with me in the midst of my turmoil. He revealed the truth of who I am, what he thinks of me and that he was faithful and worthy of my trust because he cherishes me.
There’s a place I go to discover my worth, a place that reveals who I really am, I cannot get that from anyone else. I must get it from God’s Word.
Psalm 9:9 states: The Lord is a refuge for the oppressed, a stronghold in times of trouble.
At first glance you don’t see it, but let’s dig deeper and look up the following words:
Refuge: it means, protection from danger or distress, a stronghold, which protects by its strength; a sanctuary.
Stronghold means: a place of security, a fortified place.
Fortify means: to surround with a wall.
Do you see what we’re trying to do?
We are attempting to build our own walls of protection from oppression, all the while Jesus is saying come to me, I am your refuge, your security, your protection.
We try and fail by constructing elaborate emotional walls thinking they will conceal the anguish we live in. However, Jesus says he is our stronghold, our wall of strength and shelter from affliction, depression or torment.
We don’t need to build walls of defense and protection because Christ is that for us already. Think on the irony of that for a minute.
We must remember that Satan loves to counterfeit anything pure and holy that Christ establishes. He is deceiving us through our need to build walls.
God fortifies, safeguards, and reinforces… permanently. That means he strengthens, secures, encourages and sustains us; because that is his character!!
Our walls are a temporary, miserable attempt at healing, devised and provoked by Satan. The walls we maintain need to be dismantled by Christ, alone. He is the only one that can completely eradicate them from our hearts, so we can live in the peace and freedom he offers.
This is where you begin, in knowing that God is willing! So surrender the walls you have constructed… moment by moment… though-out your day, knowing that because of his powerful love for you, he will heal your brokenness. He has said it time after time, so trust him!